I recently read an article about regrets people have when they come to the end of their lives. I completely agree with the study’s conclusion. Most people regret not doing things that they wished they would have. The study shows that people do not regret finding a good job, raising a family, and paying their bills. These are what are expected of a good citizen. What is not expected so much is to write that book, earn that degree, travel to another country, apply for that job you believe you are not qualified for etc.
So if you are reading this you are more than capable of doing something before you die you may be afraid of doing. What if you married the wrong spouse? Or, maybe someone you wanted to be with did not marry you? Did you tell them? Maybe you should, or shouldn’t? I have heard that something’s are better left unsaid, but that could be complete bullshit if you are going to have regrets about it later.
We are often just scared and lazy. We could write that book. Write a page a day and in less than a year you will have completed something only people dream about. You could go back to school for a degree, with so many online options no one has an excuse. Yet there is the money that it will take. So what? Take out the loans and do it; especially if it is a master’s or doctorate. I am a current doctoral student and am in debt because of it; yet I would rather be in debt for a short while than die knowing I did not accomplish a desire of my heart.
Often people do not exactly obtain their childhood dream job. Some people do. I know how it is to be intimidated by job descriptions and not apply. I feel inadequate, and then I think to myself these people are no better than me, with enough practice I can do it. We get secure in our positions and then get mad at the guy with the large bank account. It is not his fault, it is yours. Go for it. I have a good job that I am happy with at the moment; I would not have it if I did not apply for it once get rejected then applied again and received an offer. You are your own boss never be intimidated.
There are countless examples that I could give. Getting in shape, learning martial arts, taking a painting class, buying a motorcycle; hell go to Colorado and get stoned if you never have before. Go shoot guns, date multiple people, give money to the poor and volunteer for the children. Buy the new car, build the new house, and move to California to take up surfing.
The reality is you are not intimidated by others; you are actually intimidated of yourself. Self-doubt equals failure. Fear not and live a life of no regrets!
I read more news than I watch. I read an article that was disturbing but was completely believable Read: How to Avoid the Health Risks That Come With Financial Stress. We literally work ourselves into an early grave. I do not have to explain the reasons why we worry over money. I am just as guilty as anyone else. It is unfortunate however that we as a society have allowed money to have so much power.
The banks are the power of the world or as the apostle Paul speaks of Satan; “The ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient.” (Ephesians 2:2, NIV). The banking system is an evil we all live in disobedience with, like a harlot, we all use banking services. They have us trapped. The banks are our gods and the governments our slave masters. Think about this, the world is in debt $164 Trillion dollars. That does not even make sense! Why be in debt to ourselves? We have allowed corporations to give us “jobs” so we can pay back interest on money that they do not even possess. The banks are then defended by government thugs. This process is done legally in part through fractional-reserve banking.
If we all just stopped being afraid. Well, first we would have better mental and physical health. It feels as if we are the ancient Israelites who were fearful of entering the promise land. After 40 years of fear Joshua takes command of his people with a powerful exhortation we would be wise to listen to today. “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” (Joshua 1:9, NIV).
I admit I am just as afraid, but we the people have the power. We could grind the corrupt system to a halt; all we would have to do is stay home. No more work just so we can eat all while those that do not feast from our labors. We would shut them down. That $164 trillion they say we owe; gone. We could raid on their parade with such veracity it would be like the Israelites marching around Jericho, we would tear the walls down. While this is taking place we would share with one another. No one would go hungry or be lacking. All of our combined skills would give us ample ability to then restructure society without Satan’s banks and governments.
So encourage you today. Do not be fearful of your financial situation. The world is yours, as it is ours, we own all things, and all things are owned by us. There is a promise for us that we can find through the teachings of great spiritual leaders like Jesus. We have been called to be visionaries and revolutionaries. What you have in your bank account does not define you and what they take away from you, is not really you. Share this message with your family and friends and if we all band together we can shut their system down.
I know often my writings can be a bit critical of the church. So essentially I am being critical of God’s people; maybe even critical of God? While I would not be the first one, or the last to be very opinionated, having the desire, or dare I say the need to question my faith. I want to share some inspirational words to those who feel that they do not belong in the church; or feel the church is not what it once was to them. I can write this because the church is not what it once was for me.
When I was in my late teens and twenties the church was the place to be. It was the happy bliss first time heroin users feel. Unfortunately it is something we often chase for a lifetime, always trying to find that new spiritual high that kept us coming back. Yet just as good as it feels the chasing will let us down and soon we have spiritual track marks from injections of the next paradigm shift. It takes a real good spiritual junkie to make it through a whole life dedicated to the church. Although some great sages who often lurk, not in the pulpit so much as the pews. These guys are real Christ like gurus. They have it figured out and make us wonder why not me? Or, maybe they are junkies too and just have a good way of hiding it.
Through my personal adventures I have racked up a lot of study and prayer time. I even have a good amount of formal theological education. Yet it seems like the more I think I know, the more cynical I become. This has happened especially as I have entered my later 30’s. I do not feel the need to impress anyone. For many years I attended church and had one major intention, to get a job as a pastor. I found out unless you have parents in ministry within the flavor of Christianity that I am from it can be a difficult task. That on top of my own baggage I carry as an ex-felon and someone who has abused alcohol and other drugs in the past and carry a scarlet letter and guilt, that I know does not belong, but still lingers. I think that can be a driving force behind many of us in similar situations. For me it is about reaching to higher heights academically; probably the reason I am a doctoral student. I want to prove I am better than my doubters. Probably the reason I started my own flop of a ministry “The Backyard Preacher” which consists of this blog and a podcast. It is probably why I am critical of many preachers and ministries; especially the ones that think they have the answers, I hate that! No one has all the answers! The church has not done me wrong for say, I have just not yet achieved what I thought I wanted out of the church. I wanted to be a great leader, preaching with passion to thousands of people. I wanted to be a world changer for Jesus and live the life of the preacher on TV. Houses, cars, women, lots of money; I would probably be in jail faster than Jim Bakker can sell a tub of apocalypse food.
Here is the inspirational part of my story. My church attendance is not what it used to be. My ego centric desire to become a Christian leader is shrinking, as I have been humbled. While the desire and “calling” to the pastorate is still there; If I never hold the official position It is whatever. I am becoming more satisfied morphing into one of those Christian sages who can which can only be attained though trials, disappointment, and acid trips. Understanding that the Christian life is fully emotional, but at the same time fully built upon faith that requires no action. I have written much about faith and how we innately feel we must do some kind of performance to be worthy. The sage understands that there is no amount of work that can make us worthy. Basically what it boils down to is that we stop playing church. We stop acting like Jesus took all our evil desires away and that life is grand. We stop trying to be someone we are not. What is inspirational about all this? I have, and I am continuingly coming to realize that I can just be me. If being me is good enough for God, it is good enough for the church.
What is your situation today? Is it what you want? Or, are you waiting for some life-changing experience to occur to rid yourself of your current situation? Let me tell you this, whatever your situation, be it good or bad is brought about based on your thoughts.
You only understand the world you live in because of your senses and how you interpret your response to those external forces. Deep inside you have a calling a purpose dare I say a WILL. “What is it you want”calls the creator to man, but man refuses to listen. We ignore our abilities and live in the mire of the life we have created.
Today is your opportunity to put aside misguided thoughts. You may feel you are lying to yourself. I tell you that it is not a lie, it is your ego resisting. The master Jesus called it “the flesh” his disciples called us to “crucify the flesh” this self destruction brings about rebirth. Rebirth of whatever you want! This will not be your ego, this will be what some call the will of God, others your purpose.
You are not who you once were, you are great and full of power and authority to change your life and the world around you. Know this, know thyself and let it be.